Adult

I'm an adult now, 
or so they say -
and I must learn to do things
the proper way.
Fit well into the mold,
no overflow.

I'm an adult, 
so I get to vote,
and speak my mind.
But it better not be loud!

Feels so familiar...

I can make choices, 
oh yes,
with the help of my friends -
in the media...
they know everything.

Pop the flavor of the month,
feel like a kid again!

This is not what I expected
it's the furthest from my wish.
When I blew upon the candles
as a kid.

I'm astounded that
the years have passed,
and I'm still so naïve.
But there's a child inside
who longs to believe...

And then sobs silently...

I'm an adult, I'm responsible.
I keep my word.
But there's never enough time,
so it's mostly in my mind.

I used to see myself -
shining like a star.
They say the bigger the dream,
the harder the fall.
I jumped off the roller coaster,
see what I landed on...

This is not what I expected
it's the furthest from my wish.
When I blew upon the candles
as a kid.

If this is what it is
to be adult,
I choose to be a child.
I want to see life
with wonder in my eyes...

And love for everything...

I'm an adult, 
I have free will.
I can break the mold, 
or let it break me.

I can make my choice
and be -
who I want
to be.

This is just what I had hoped for,
It's exactly what I wished.
When I blew upon the candles
as a kid.

All I ever dreamed of,
is still within my reach.
As it always was,
and always will be.

I had just forgotten it...

 

Carmen Colombo
July 2003